Well today is the day of the Relay for Life kick off, in which I wont be attending because of friend drama. It's not really even drama. It's as if our friendship never even existed. But I'll let you know what happened so you have a better understanding.
We were really close friends (or so I thought). I literally put up with so much in this friendship. We made plans together that she would constantly back out of because she was beyond indecisive. We would be BFF's one day and it was as if she barely knew me the next day. I always let that stuff go because I liked hanging out with her, I felt like I could really talk to her, I always had so much fun when we did things together, I felt like we shared the same stories and that we were each other. It was kind of like we were soul sisters. If we were out and she had no money to pay for food, I would pay for hers. She didn't have a car so every time we hung out, I was picking her up & taking her home. But of course, none of that mattered because I really liked hanging out with her and thought I meant something to her, too! A couple hours after hanging out one night (& her acting distant the whole time), I log on to Facebook and I guess judging by my status she could tell I was sad. So she asks what's wrong and I tell her. No warm words or friendly advice in exchange, just short distant-ness. So I ask if she's OK. She says "yes, but I don't think you are". *confusion* who says that? So then I ask "are you sure?" and in response I get "Yes I'm fine and I don't have time for your Facebook message drama, have a good night Heather". What the hell? A few days later she texts me asking if I wanted to hang out. I lied and told her I was busy (I was still hurt), but ended up messaging her the next day a longish message asking if we could do something that week and to let me know when she'll be free. I get "yeah" in return. Never a text or call to do something. Never another word. It hurt but now honestly, I'm okay. Would you still be my friend if I cared about you enough to ask if you were okay?
This may sound awful, but the reason I won't be going to the Relay kick off is because she's close friends with the team leader. I actually really like the group leader, but the group is small as it is. I would be sitting there with a girl I barely know and a girl I no longer know. I don't like feeling awkward and unwanted in social groups. Is that understandable? But even though I wont be attending the team meetings, I will be attending the big event in May, and I will continue to donate money to charities. I still hope to put a stop to cancer one day. I'm so happy I was able to raise $50 towards this cause, thanks to my lovely sponsors.
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